HAPPY NEW YEAR, PLEASE TELL ME THAT WHAT YOU SAID WAS A JOKE.

Last week I had gotten an unexpected e-mail from someone who I have not kept in contact with in four years. Normally that would not sound odd, but the person that reached out to me was someone who I dated and ended with very bad results.

So of course after we broke up (actually I got dumped…) we really had nothing more to say to each other and I had pretty much have moved on with my life. The breakup was bad I thought and it did take me months to get over it, but with help from a good friend I was able to do just that.

So getting to my point of all this, the person that was my ex reached out to me via e-mail to basically say that they wanted to see how I was doing after all this time. And then came the second part… And that part was the fact that they admitted they messed up in our past relationship, and wanted to try again.

Now I have to admit that when they started to e-mail me after such a long time I was very cold with my replies and actually kept them to one word answers. When he sent the e-mail saying “Hi, how are you doing?” My reply was just “O-Kay.”

But after a few more messages from him I did get to talk a little more. I guess I was wondering what this was all about for I really was not sure and my guard was up. Then it progressed to text messaging, and that only happened when I forgot to remove the signature line in my e-mail reply that had my cell number.

Once I had noticed that I made that error I kind have known that a text would be next. Long story short after texting it became an actual phone call and I got the confession that we wanted me back. My first response to myself was.

“What the fuck? This is a joke right?

You’re kidding me? When? Why? What brought you to this idea? Please tell me you are kidding?”

But atlas it was not a joke. I had so many questions I wanted to ask them and Lord knows I did. But the one thing that really caught my attention was the fact that they admitted they was totally wrong and that he wanted to make things right again.

Now it’s not often (especially if they are gay…) when an Afro-American male admits when he is wrong, but he did admit it. Then again come to think about it, it’s very rare if anyone would admit to such a thing.

But they did and I did ask them to repeat it a few times just to confirm it, and they did admit one again (a few times actually…) But they did take full responsibility for what happened four years ago. Of course I was totally taken back by all of this, and we spent the next few days talking on the phone and getting reacquainted with each other once again.

After two days of talking on the phone we had set a night to actually meet, and that night was New Year’s Eve. We both did meet and I have to admit that it was a nice time together; their personality had totally changed from what it was in the past, I kind of had to admit that I felt that I was interacting with some sort of doppelgänger. Or maybe some sort of twin or pod person that we all see in sci-fi movies. But no it was actually him.

So now the thought I have is “What happens next with us?”  I guess only time will tell what will happen, but I am interested in finding out. So we will see after all who knows what is going to happen. Maybe something good will come from this. Who knows? Anything can happen at this point in time.  So I guess all I can say at this point is “Good luck and all the best to me in the start of the new year.”